Monthly Archives: November 2007

MAGIC MYSTERY.

Our dog Sandy is having his lump removed on Monday. His last lump – which was removed two years ago, almost to the day – was a mast cell cancer which we were told can kill within weeks. We were so lucky at the time, because our previous vet had been telling us for ages (months and months) that the lump was nothing to worry about and it was only taken out because he had to have an operation for something else and they said they might as well remove the lump at the same time. Fortunate too is the fact that Sandy has gone a full two years without any further problems.

Sandy’s pedigreee name is Magic Mystery. Below, I have copied something about Sandy’s history which I wrote in 2006 on a website of mine. It will tell you exactly why I believe that Sandy truly is a ‘Magic Mystery’.

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John Bradburne came into my life very unexpectedly – and brought with him a dog……..

It really began on new year’s day in 1996. Our daughter had been going through some difficulties at school – verbal bullying, I suppose you would call it – though we had no idea just how much it was upsetting her. I had been concerned for a while that she had been saying she was fat (although she was definitely not overweight) and over the Christmas period my mother thought she heard her being sick in the bathroom……. but it was on January the 1st, when my husband and I took both our children out for a pizza and our daughter could not eat a thing, that we knew we had a really serious problem on our hands!

I remember coming back home and throwing myself on the bed in despair. Then I remembered John Bradburne………. my husband had shown me a newspaper article about him some months before and, for some strange reason, I had wanted to keep the article for myself and had hidden it under the bed – where it still remained, gathering dust. In truth, there had been one previous occasion when I had asked John for assistance when our daughter needed urgent help and I had really felt that God had – through him – heard my prayers. So now, lying on my bed in tears, I begged him to intercede for me urgently.

Almost at once, an overwhelming belief that we had to get our daughter a dog came into my mind. She had always wanted a pet but I, not wanting to be tied down by having to look after an animal, had refused her everything apart from a budgie and a rabbit. She loved them both – the budgie in particular was a very unique and special creature – but once this idea came into my head that day, I knew we just had to get her a dog.

They were dark days, when even getting her to eat an apple seemed a major achievement. She closed up and tried to shut us out totally……. for a while it seemed almost as if she hated us. But she did seem happy at the prospect of having a dog. Actually getting hold of a puppy at short notice did not prove so easy though. How could we find a bitch that had just had a litter of puppies? To complicate matters, our daughter saw a picture of a golden retriever in a book and set her heart on having one. After a few phone calls though, we did track down somebody about 45 minutes drive from us with a golden retriever that had just given birth and so found ourselves, one cold and frostly morning, looking at these little balls of white fur huddled up beside their mother.

Of course, our daughter fell in love with them – and one in particular. I however, was a bit unsure. A golden retriever was a much bigger dog than I had been thinking of. Not only that, but this dog was a pedigree and expensive, whereas I had really been thinking of a mongrel. Was this really a good idea?

I gazed out of the window…… a small snowfall overnight still lay on the ground…….. and I spoke to John in my heart: “Do you really want me to get this dog? We would need him to be a magic dog, to work miracles for us”. At this point, the lady who owned the dogs told us the puppies’ pedigree names – they all began with the word ‘magic’ and one was called ‘Magic Mystery’. I really began to think that John was telling me to get this dog!

So it was that, one day almost 3 weeks later, we collected ‘Magic Mystery’ and brought him home. Our daughter gave him an ‘ordinary’ name of Sandy and we soon grew to love him. Our daughter’s eating did slowly improve and although she has contined to have many problems in her life, the anorexia did not develop further.

As for the dog himself, he has been a constant joy to all of us. You could never find a more good-natured, sensitive and loving dog.

When he was still a puppy, I bought my daughter the video of the Lion King which had recently been released. As we sat and watched it, a noise on it frightened Sandy (he has always been a bit of a wimp!) and – without realising what he was doing – he jumped onto the sofa for the first time (he had previously been just too small and nervous to try it!). Following that incident, I often called him Simba after the lion cub in the film. It was only a month or two later when I finally bought and read the book about John’s life (Strange Vagabond Of God) that I learned that he had looked after a dog called Simba in Africa. Ever since then, Sandy (or ‘Magic Mystery’) has been ‘John’s dog’ in my mind! I truly believe that John, in his own way, ‘told’ me to get the dog for our daughter.

Sandy will be 11 this December (2006). Last December, he had a cancerous lump removed and things were not looking hopeful for a while. He recovered though (no doubt with John’s assistance) and is often mistakenly thought to be a far younger dog by other dog-walkers that we meet.

We all dread the time when Sandy’s life will come to an end – but I am sure that John will help us get through it – as he has done with many family difficulties during the past few years!

I really love the poem that John wrote on the death of his Simba:-

THE PASSING OF SIMBA


What was it to you who but mused on afar

As I passed from a bond to a free?
While I sighed to my God and the Morning Star,
“Je ne meurs pas, j’entre dans la vie”.

So the odd dog died and the long long grass
Sighed, ” Lay him away by the pine
Where eagle lies buried while over her pass
Her peers that her presence divine.”

There lies like a lion at rest in the shade
Of the pines as they sigh like the sea
Old Simba the strong: there’s a song in the glade,
“Je ne meurs pas, j’entre dans la vie”.

That dog and that eagle were friends in their life
And they share a penultimate plot:
She had never a mate, he had never a wife,
But their strife’s at an end, is it not?

He was found in the hay, on his tail was the dew,
On his nose was the warmth of the morn;
His friends were the many, his enemies few,
But he knew his penultimate dawn.

But a better he finds where the zephyrs are light,
Over ground not for passing away:
The wind was a cold and a cold was the night
As he died… but he’s better today.

What was it to you who but mused from afar
As I passed from a bond to a free?
While I sighed to my God and the Morning Star,
“Je ne meurs pas, j’entre dans la vie”.


Please keep us – and the dog – in your prayers.

A VERY ENJOYABLE DAY

Yesterday, my husband had to attend a morning meeting in Eastbourne. He used to attend these meetings (in various different towns) regularly and I usually went along as well for a change of scenery, but it hasn’t happened for a year or two. Yesterday though, I went along with him to Eastbourne.
His meeting was at 10:00 am, so we left just before 9:00 – but got held up by roadworks and hubby didn’t actually get into the meeting until 10:15 (it was ok, as at least one other person arrived after him!). He parked the car in the car park of a Catholic church which was opposite the place where his meeting was held (having asked a parishioner if it would be ok to do so). Off he went to his meeting – and off I went to do some shopping!
First stop was straight into the shopping centre to find a loo (my morning cup of decaf usually has a fairly speedy effect on me!). Second stop was the centre’s cafe because I had only had a tiny bit of fruit for breakfast and I was feeling weak and nauseous as a result of having an empty stomach. Question: what do you eat in a coffee shop when you are starving hungry, but trying to diet? The only thing on offer was a scone – so I had this, together with a coffee. I really enjoyed both, but the coffee soon had its usual laxative effect on me – I only had time to have a quick look at some jackets in BHS, followed by a brief browse among some cheap tracksuit bottoms in Primark, when I had to rush back off to the loo!
Feeling more comfortable once again, I went back to Primark and started searching through the track suit bottoms again. I managed to find a pair (in a lovely, bright, cerise colour) in my size, but I failed to find a matching jacket in the same size. I got myself in a bit of a state looking, as they were all piled on top of each other – and you just try using one hand to search through such a pile and keep it tidy! I felt guilty because the previously neat piles were anything but neat by the time I finished! I quickly bought the trousers alone and beat a hasty retreat from the shop.
Next stop was M&S where I gazed longingly at a very beautiful blue dress. I need something to wear at our club’s Christmas dinner and party, so was pondering whether such a dress could possibly retain its beautiful state on a fatty like me! Luckily, I never got to find out……… Although it was only about 11:45 and hubby’s meeting was meant to go on until 1:00 pm (and he had said that they usually provided a buffet lunch afterwards) he suddenly phoned me and said that the meeting had finished early. So, there I was cut off in my prime – and when I hadn’t even bought half of the stuff I had intended to!
I rushed up the road to meet hubby – and was pretty worn out by the time I reached him!  I ran into him back outside the church – where he immediately discovered that there was a mass going on and, of course, dragged me into it – before I could even say a word! I was so hot and flustered, that I spent the first 10 minutes or so feeling a bit grumpy, to be honest! I soon cheered up though. We then went into a wine bar place opposite the church and had a most delicious lunch – the best salmon fishcakes I have ever tasted. Yum! A glass of wine and a comfortable armchair helped to make me feel more and more mellow. It was a great meal!
Afterwards, we went back into town where hubby said he wanted to look in BHS. We ended up buying some Christmas crackers, but hubby got drawn into getting a pretty good discount by signing up for their store card (one of those one or two-day offers to tempt you to sign up!). At this point, I got a bit stressed out though. We had a bad experience a couple of years ago when we were trying to sign up for a new bank account with the Alliance and Leicester (another good offer: my husband can’t resist them!), only to find that we were refused the account because of our credit rating. I just hate anything like that – oh sooh much! We queried it and when they checked, they found that it was just because I had been a bit late in making a payment of £20 on one occasion (we reckoned it was about six year previously) and they immediately let us have the account after all. In the meantime though, I had got so stressed out – I guess it was my pride making me feel embarrassed – that now I just don’t want to even apply for anything in case it all happens again! Yesterday, I made an excuse that I was hot and left the shop and sat outside. Ten minutes later, I got a text message from hubby asking me to go back to the counter. ‘Why?’ I enquired. ‘Just to sign for your card’ responded hubby ‘Everything else is completed.’ As usual, I had been worrying about nothing!
Anyway, we made use of the discount available and went back to the jackets that I had been looking at earlier in the day – and hubby ended up buying me one that looked really good when I tried it on. So, I was very happy with that! We ended the day with a drive home along the coastal route – it was still just light enough to enjoy the views over the fields and cliffs out to sea – and the beautiful views of the river valley at Cuckmere Haven. 
A really lovely day. I wish for many more like it!

LIFE GOES ON

Just didn’t get any time to blog the past few days. Was in a dutiful mood, doing lots of cleaning and housewifey stuff! The older I get, the more I seem to need a few extra hours in the day. Can anybody find me one or two? I’d be ever so grateful!


I didn’t get to really take advantage of my son being away last week, as daughter only worked one half day and one full day. The full day on Friday did at least enable me to do some floor-washing, etc. She still came home for lunch though! This week, she is only down for three half-days again! 

Son is back home again after his five nights in Gran Canaria. I don’t think he had an amazingly wonderful time; he only had two nice days weather-wise. It is a shame, as the first week of his holiday, when he was here at home, he had a bad cold and spent most of the time in bed. He didn’t even want to take this holiday, but they wouldn’t let him carry it forward to the next working year.

We spent some time on Saturday talking to the two Jehovah’s Witness ladies we sometimes run into in a coffee shop. Daughter was there with us – and somehow we got to talking about some of her problems. The JW’s (of course) told her that if she belonged to their community she would be ok, all her problems would be over…….. Yeah, right! I kind of see their point in some ways though. The JW’s live in a tight little community, they are not really encouraged to mix socially with the outside world. So, although they are generally disliked by people, they can cope with it. Catholics are also pretty unpopular in the world – but we don’t have that tight community to find solace in. We live very much in the world. It then becomes hard – especially for young people – not to be drawn into doing the things that everyone else is doing, including stuff which is morally questionable. We need to build up much more of a feeling of community, much more of a support system. The trouble is, nobody wants to know. It is usually hard to get people (apart from the usual few) to support anything to do with the church. 

Yesterday we went to our daughter’s church with her in the morning, as we were going to be out at the time of our normal evening service. Now, that church does try and make an effort to build a sense of community. After the mass, they had a lunch in the hall so we went along. The food was great and the atmosphere was good. We spoke to a young girl from Nigeria who is studying here to be a chemist. She was telling us how the kids over there all behave well because they know they will be severely punished if they do wrong. It was really nice talking to her – she had such a bright, sunny disposition. The kind of person who cheers you up without even trying!

Last night, we went to see Martyn Joseph in concert. It is something I have been looking forward to for months and, believe me, I was not disappointed! That guy really puts his heart and soul into performing! There was a really good atmosphere there last night and you could tell he thought it was a good audience. We bought his new album last night, so I will maybe play a track from that here later in the week (the track ‘Strange Kind Of Friend’ that has been playing for the past few days is by him anyway) We had excellent seats last night, in the second row, so we could see really well. The only bad bit of the evening was that daughter (who had had a couple of glasses of red wine) was very difficult and stroppy in the car on the way home!

The really bad news in my life at the moment is that daughter thinks she has found another lump on Mr Dog (he had a previous cancerous lump removed two years ago). He has been a bit odd the past few days – you know how, if you stroke a dog in a certain place, you hit a nerve and his leg starts moving? Well, that keeps happening all the time, especially if you touch his side. So, we are really worried and are taking him to the vet tonight.

Mr Dog is coming up for his 12th birthday – and golden retrievers generally only get to about the age of thirteen, so even the optimistic view doesn’t give him much longer with us. I am so scared of anything happening to him though. Not only will I miss him so much myself (I love that dog so much more than I thought I could ever love a dog), but I really do not know how daughter will cope when he goes. One thing is sure – it will be an extremely difficult time for this household.

Life is very sad really, isn’t it?

THE DEMON DRINK

Yesterday, daughter went out for lunch in a pub with her new drama group. She was supposed to be meeting us at church at 6:30 pm. When she didn’t turn up, I sent her a text message asking where she was and got a reply merely saying ‘Ok’. Then, I got another message (which I read surreptitiously in the middle of the service) saying ‘Can you get of froz?’ – and I knew she was drunk!


Normally, I am fairly patient with my daughter. I do however find it hard to deal with when she is drunk. What mother wants to see her daughter slurring her words, throwing up because of the booze? Last night, I am afraid to say I really lost it…….. I screamed at her like a maniac! I told her I’d reached the end of my tether. I (for the first time) called her an alcoholic. I think she is one, I really do……..

Today, she is apologetic. She is telling me how much she loves me. She says she knows she needs help, but will she actually go out and get it? If she doesn’t, this will just happen again and again and again……

My diet isn’t going too well today – I’m afraid that I am definitely in comfort-eating-mode! I am persevering with the bike though, even though I have reached the stage where just about every part of my body is aching like crazy!

Thanks to my daughter’s escapades last night, my heart is aching too……….

WHERE HAS THIS WEEK GONE?

It has just flown by! With both my offspring home, I haven’t had much time for blogging. Daughter is back at work today and it looks as if the agency is up and running again. Son has booked himself on a flight to Las Palmas for a few days from Monday. So, I might actually get a bit of space to myself next week!

I have spent quite a bit of time on my exercise bike this week, half an hour both morning and afternoon. It is going really well. I actually enjoy the discipline of having to exercise at certain times each day and it is easy to stick to the schedule – I will even keep to it at weekends whenever possible. It is early days yet to tell whether or not the ‘saddle sore’ problem will re-emerge – though all seems okay so far.

The real sixty-milllion-dollar question is, of course, whether or not I will manage to lose weight. I lost weight doing this before, so there is more hope around at the moment. Yesterday, I did something which might sound very small but actually took a lot of courage – I weighed myself! This summer, although it was fantastic to have all those holidays, had a pretty devastating effect on the old waistline: I knew that I had put on weight, but was too scared to weigh myself. I decided yesterday that I had to do it though, as I will need to know whether I am doing enough to shift the old flab. As expected, I had put on really quite a lot of weight (I swear that I really could win any contest in the world for putting on the most amount of weight in the shortest time hands down – or perhaps I should say stomach down!) I resisted the temptation to go and throw myself off the nearest cliff immediately after getting off the scales though. There is no point me getting depressed and disgusted with myself for being utterly useless and putting on weight when I am meant to be losing it. I am hopefully on the right tracks (or pedals!) now and that is all that matters. (Mind you, this is my last hope and if it doesn’t work I think that the cliff option might grow to be quite attractive!).

It hasn’t actuallly been a great week diet-wise, because we have eaten out three times! On Tuesday (before table tennis) the four of us went to a carvery, as hubby had a voucher. It was a really cheap meal and hubby could not resist it. I had turkey and all the trimmings (though very little potato). A dessert (ice cream) was included in the deal and we had wine too, so that was bad! Wednesday, we ate out again on the way out to the theatre (we saw Abigail’s party). I had a healthy meal, swordfish and a baked potato (though man, did those chips that hubby ate look good!). Again, I had a glass of wine (and another one in the interval at the theatre). Yesterday,  daughter and I took Mr Dog to a park that has a cafe with a new menu so we had lunch there – it was really healthy though, fishcakes with salad. I only had a banana in the evening, though we did go out to a local pub and I had a glass of my most favourite tipple – elderberry wine! I am determined that I am going to give up alcohol altogether apart from on special occasions, but the rare occasions when this particular elderberry wine is on offer will have to be an exception to the rule (hey, we all need a treat sometimes!). 

I am being fairly lenient with myself as far as diet goes at the moment, because my body has enough to cope with getting used to all the exercise again. Apart from the meals out though, I have been very good for the rest of the day. I have even swapped my much-loved muesli for just an apple and a cereal bar (sob, sob!).

Anyway, that’s life in Seeker’s world this extremely cold November morning. I’m off to make some soup now. Take care!